My Heart Breaks...

As a Mama, my heart breaks every single time I look at my broken little boy. The cast takes over his lower half, however it will thankfully NEVER take over his strong heart and bright personality.

I realize that, being pregnant, my emotions are heightened, but I've spent a lot of the morning just looking at Cayden (happy, not in pain, playing with his dinosaurs and crawling around the family room floor) and crying to myself. I don't want him to see me so sad, but I just worry for him. He had just finally got the hang of walking and starting to do pretty well at it, and now this. Another set-back. I worry that he will be nervous about walking again after the cast is removed. I'm worried that it will happen again. I'm worried that the three fractures he's had in his first 19 months of life mean something more. And I worry for his future. All while he takes it like an absolute Champ. He amazes me every day -so resilient, so strong- sometimes stronger than I am I think.

This also means more genetic testing. Dr. Ballock thinks that something abnormal is still going on. In looking at his x-rays, he noticed once again that Cayden's bone density still just isn't what it should be. And, again, that worries me. But I trust him completely to continually take such great care of my baby. So we will return to him in 2 weeks (hopefully 2 short weeks), to reevaluate the fractures, and hopefully remove the cast. We will also have more bloodwork drawn for genetics. Please pray for quick, easy healing for my boy, and strength for Mama and Daddy. :-)

I know it's just another speed-bump in the road of life, and that we'll all come out of it just fine. And I know that Cayden will be the strongest little boy, and an amazing young man someday because of his trials. We've got to take the bad with the good, and make the most out of it all. I hope more good comes soon! I'll stay hopeful :-)